Stay Here With Me, Please

It’s easy to leave the ground — or at least want to leave the ground.

The ground is where our minds should be most of the time. There, with everybody else’s. This doesn’t make us normies or more normal, it makes us present!

Mindfulness is tricky, it can feel a lot like how dissociation feels. Personally, if I don’t have check-ins constantly to gauge if I’m there or not, I am almost entirely dissociated. The version you get of me is fairly standard and void of the communication, identification, and mastery of feelings. At that point, we just don’t have the capacity to realize feelings.

Vital distinction: we don’t feel nearly as much when we walk away from reality. Our body is still playing the game of the world, but our mind, our true self, has been walking away for a while now.

We can come back and be relatively present, if need be, but that is rare and we accept the risks. This is precisely why it is so dangerous to hide out in your mind.

Why are we making it okay to just fucking leave like that? You can’t run away from everything — it comes down to our fight or flight responses.

Traumas need to be talked about and dealt with accordingly; they’re the only things holding us back. They ARE the bag of bricks we carry around day after day.

Once we’ve dealt with our actual reality, we find something to care about (it has to include ourselves), and we stop treating life as an act, we open up the reason why we are all here.

To enjoy ourselves. To be kind. To help our neighbors. To experience emotion. To love. To succeed.

Free will can never be taken away from us. It is in our power to make choices every day. The outcome of those choices do involve variables such as luck, and chance, but we are not in control of those things. AMAZING things also just happen to us when we are communicative and genuine.

Accepting reality every day gets easier with time. Once we are genuine about this stuff, we see tangible evidence of change.

Once we slip back into our old slick ways, we start to feel it crumble again. Communicate, gauge, identify, and think about what is most important in different areas of our lives and line that up with the path you’re on now. Always merge. Change. Grow.

Having someone to relate to, and communicate with about all of this is a large part of the answer. Epiphanies need to be shared. We almost have to make a proof of change for ourselves to serve as reminders every day of who we are working towards being or becoming.

It is a never-ending race that I actually enjoy now.

Talk to me.

C.M. Rose