Times are strange right now. Right? I had a choice recently; just within the past few days. After a failed relationship, with Frank still on the way, should I uproot my life once again and go back to Tennessee? Or should I stay where I’ve built a life. I’ve made interpersonal relationships, resources, connections– the mother of my unborn child will be in Portland.
I have to stay here. I want to stay here. It’s beautiful here in all facets. No one person can control my decisions– I control me. I am always in control of me. I didn’t always know that.
I’m staying in Portland. I found an essential job in the healthcare industry that can start me immediately and I found housing with my bad credit and made a bank account with technically no address. The odds were always stacked against me. This time was no different in that sense.
This time, I get a beautiful baby boy named Frank in September. I get a job I love helping people who genuinely want it and need it. I get a beautiful setting for my life and nice people surrounding me. I am so grateful for everything I’ve been through — it’s the only reason I’m here right now.
I pray that I am strong enough to keep it together. I think I am. I know I am.
C.M. Rose
Why Fire Burns 